when i left God i knew then that i decided on my own,i pleased men instead of God,,,, but when i get reconciled with god, i realize all the mistakes i've done before God, how i neglected His own feelings as my father... i appreciate God that he is not a controller instead he gives us freewill that at the long run He knew then that all of us will come back to Him,,Now that i am back in god's loving arms, its my goal to live a life pleasing to Him, check:how's my times with him, am i praying continuosly and getting close with god,,,how do i appear with my family, do i present god to them,the way i act,,living in a family where i am the only disciple is really challenging, there are times they do not understand what i am doing, but hey i want to stand up and do what God tells me to do, at work, with my friends, to set example to them and encourage them... most that convicts me is david's heart after he fall,he was still considered as man after God's own heart,i want to become a woman after God's own heart, by abiding to God's law, the bible.i meditated on david's heart,, how God see the sincerity of his heart.....psalm51,,and now i want to live 2timothy2:15,,, as God's child,, its my desire to make my father in heaven...acts13:22,, amy we all grow us God's children, children that will bring light to the world,,,Godbless us all